I have been programmed to expect the worst and all I see now is pessimism in myself but in others I see beauty. Am I wired wrong somewhere somehow because it sure feels like it.
Situation: To share a new found glory (read: knowledge/epiphany) Say I am so happy because I got moved by a particular information. I want to share it with the whole wide word, especially my family and friends- maybe they would appreciate the oracle as much as it affected me. And then this skepticism lingers over me like the buzzing of a mosquito; Dont you think that is a bit showy?!! Welp...
Solution: A) Discard the intention all together
B) Entertain them with halves - which always always sound ridiculous and LOST
C) I do give my share of the cake. But am not really good at it :3
Humility is good to a certain extent until it swallows you whole like Pinocchio in the whale's belly. Until you know it, you're a slave to undermination of self.
Then again, to share doesn't entirely constitute that I am right, right? To ensure that I'm not going cuckoo in my head I have to channel some of my thoughts into this current realm of existence.
Because.. caged thoughts remain scattered and nothing ever grows from it (only pening) - I wouldn't know if they're merely the byproduct of intellect gone idiocracy or if they are indeed valid opinions worthy to be shared.
Soooooo note to self it STOP RUNNING AROUND IN YO HEAD and release some of it for validation xD
MEOW