2021-10-25

godawful scare thinking i lost my shit again, for the same reasons

metaphorically and literally. 

{probably the latter is a thing im working on still, forever perhaps? wtv}

is it too much to ask you to love me like that, is it too much to want things to be reciprocated a certain way, yada yada.. the usual whims. except not really- its not usual, i dont have these whims. azimah, im proud you're able to voice this out on your own. i love you babe, i really. do. youre doing grat, HAHAH to see this when im awake. 20, 30 years from  now? children, i do hope you see through way in life as it is the GREATEST ADVENTURE IN THIS CAPACITY. shalom <3

to be living, to be loving, to be loved, to be all that i am to be........... peace love life